Archive for the ‘Experiment Progress’ Category

I think I really may be onto something with this experiment. I’m not going to lie, I haven’t even considered working on my ideas for a novel but at least this blog has brought some organisation to the chaos that is my mind. Since I started this blog, I’ve found that every time I start to get bored with something, I end up logging on here to read Freshly Pressed/one of the blogs I follow, check my stats, or think about what I might write about myself…Unfortunately, as I predicted, now that I’ve given myself the task of posting something new every week I’m also coming up with new ways of getting out of my blogging commitments. Luckily this past week it has been Uni assignments that have distracted me from updating my blog, and since they are definitely more important right now, that tells me that this experiment, albeit boring, is a success…at least so far.

Today’s post is a special one for me for a couple of reasons. Firstly, it’s been one month today since I posted my first confession and I have to say that I’m very happy with what I’ve accomplished with this blog so far. So what if I don’t post something new every day and that I don’t have 100 subscribers? That was never the point of this exercise, anyway. This blog is inspiring me to write whenever I get the chance and I’m incredibly grateful to all my subscribers (all 10 of you!) for encouraging me to continue.

The other reason this post is special is that today is my birthday. Typically, my birthday is a day of reflection for me. I look back over the past twelve months and think about the things that went well, the things that didn’t go so well, and the things I might have done differently if I’d known back then what I know now. This past year I have done a lot of things that I am incredibly proud of – most notably, giving birth to the most beautiful baby in the universe, Little Miss Awesome (not that I’m in any way biased) – so overall it’s been a very good year. Unfortunately – and unsurprisingly – the list of things I would do differently is still much, much longer than I would like it to be. Looking back I realise that I’ve wasted far too much time stressing about negative things that were completely out of my control and I haven’t spent nearly enough of my energy on the things that make me happy. There have been so many things that I’ve wanted to do and have even ‘planned’ on doing but have managed to talk myself out of. This is a recurring problem for me, particularly with my writing and other creative goals. So, for the past couple of days I’ve been wondering if maybe I’m just kidding myself thinking that I could ever write something worth reading. Writing a novel requires commitment and a significant amount of discipline, and that’s not something I’m generally known for. Do I really want this bad enough? Or is it time to finally admit to myself that I’m just not ‘hungry’ enough and to be more realistic with my goal expectations?

And I’ve made a decision. In the words of Will Smith:

No! I’m not going to give in to self-doubt, and no I’m not going to give up on my goals! Most people make New Year’s resolutions on January 1 but I’m making mine right now.

Today is the start of my new year and I resolve to make a change.

 This year I’m going to get hungry!

And with that in mind, I’ve just made my first commitment to my goals for this year (my new year) by taking up The Daily Post’s challenge to post something on this blog at least once a week. Welcome to The Procrastinator’s Post-A-Week 2011!